Saturday, April 28, 2007

Censoring myself

I censor myself. I do not say what I really feel. I know that saying the words that boil inside me will render my argument meaningless, that others will hear only the bile and not the truth behind it.

I censor myself. I type a rant and delete all but three sentences. I make personal remarks and backspace over them. I bite my tongue.

10 comments:

jenn said...

Yeah, if people could hear what my inside voice says...

And sometimes they do, but it is rarely worth it, aside from a few key times. And then I blast away.

*hugs*

Phantom Scribbler said...

My Inner Dorothy Parker salutes you.

allison said...

Sometimes it helps to type it all out and then erase it. Or rehearse it and then forget it.

And then sometimes I wish I just had the nerve to actually say it.

Miche said...

I feel your pain. Hang tough.

hamiam said...

So...I'm curious to know the topic that generates such censorship...

I tend to censor my acidic tongue, to a more pleasant, but still tangy taste for the most part...

But the Mommy Wars? I just can't seem to contain myself on that one. People tend to try and "help," and it never feels like help so much as it does a stab in the back.

ccw said...

I have many posts hanging out in "draft" form for this very reason. Sometimes I just seem to damn hateful.

niobe said...

All too familiar. All too true.

Yankee T said...

Sing it, sister!

S. said...

I often write a letter 4 or 5 times.

Magpie said...

Me too. Because I worry that I would say something awful about my mother, or my mother-in-law, or, or, or...